Cracking UPSC CSE in 1st Attempt, Pooja Jha on Fighting Bias

Having secured an All India Rank (AIR) of 82 in the Union Public Service Commission’s (UPSC) Civil Service Examination (CSE) in her very first attempt, Delhi-based Pooja Kumari Jha’s (25) happiness knew no bounds.

“From where I come, even dreaming about clearing this prestigious examination is unheard of,” Pooja tells The Better India.

To set her “expectations well within limits”, Pooja’s father always said to her, “You can become anything other than a Bollywood actor, astronomer and IAS officer.”

Pooja adds, “I am the fifth daughter and I have a younger brother as well. My family’s quest for a boy child ended when he was born. My father has been serving as an office help in a private firm in Gurgaon for about 40 years and my mother has been a homemaker.” Her growing up years was filled with hardships. Many of them stemmed from their economic standing while some were driven by societal pressures.

“The community I belong to places undue importance on producing a male child. The thought is so deep-rooted that it has taken me years to fight it and bring about a change in their thought process,” she says. Pooja says that growing up in an environment so steeped in inequality and yet having to call that place home was always something that felt jarring to her.

‘Quest to clear UPSC CSE was deeply personal.’

Pooja Jha

“To be able to assert my identity at home, cracking this examination and doing well became essential,” she says.

Even though her parents tried to love each child in a similar manner, she says that on account of being a male child there was always a sense of special treatment that was meted out to him. “For instance, my brother’s birthday was always an occasion that was celebrated without him having to ask for it. While we, sisters, would have to cajole and coerce our parents to celebrate our birthdays as well. This, while is a small example of the kind of bias that my parents had, it impacted me very deeply,” she shares.

What this did was help the sisters forge a very strong bond with each other. “We would bond and discuss this inequality at great lengths. It was during these discussions I felt the need to bring about a change,” she says. What seemed to work in Pooja’s favour was her academic excellence. She says every time she would score well, the happiness and joy her parents felt pushed her to do better and maintain that standard of excellence. “Those were the days when I would be showered with more love than my brother. I waited for those moments,” she says.

With six children to educate, feed and nourish, there were many instances where Pooja’s brother’s priorities were looked at first. “Depending on the family’s economic condition we all moved from private schools to government schools and also spent a few years in the Municipal Corporation of Delhi (MCD) schools of Delhi. The expectation to excel in academics from each one of us was very high,” she recalls.

‘My success and failures are my own.’


Pooja says that she is a self-made person. “While my mother had never been to school, my father also was only educated until Class 8. While my sisters did try, they did not go beyond Class 12. Eventually, three of my older sisters were married off rather early on in their lives,” she says.

When in Class 7, Pooja says that she had read about Dr Devi Shetty and the amazing work he has done in the field of medicine. “I aimed to be ‘the next Dr Devi Shetty’. In Class 10, I appeared for a scholarship test, which was organised by an NGO called Avanti. I was one amongst the two students selected and that offered me a complete scholarship to attending coaching classes to pursue my dream of becoming a doctor,” she says.

While Pooja lost out on clearing the NEET exam by a few marks, she qualified for Bachelor of Dental Surgery (BDS) and pursued the same from Maulana Azad Medical College, Delhi. “I topped all four years of my examination in college,” she adds with pride.

“However,” she goes on, “The purpose for which I wanted to be in public service would not be served by me pursuing dentistry and that was when I decided to appear for the CSE. While I would have been financially very secure, I knew I would not feel that satisfaction I was looking for. I wanted to make myself a role model for every girl in my locality.”

‘I taught myself English by becoming a voracious reader.’

With her parents.

“My parents did not understand my desire to give up dentistry and prepare for the UPSC, but never once stopped me from doing it. My determination was something that came through very strongly. After a point, they had no choice but to support me,” she says.

The struggles came at every stage in Pooja’s life. From spending hours in the school library pouring over books in a quest to learn English, to making conversation in English to strengthen her skills. “I remember picking up The Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank and not being able to follow the entire book. That was when I decided to learn the language just to be able to read more. I didn’t have the means to attend any extra class and so started learning by myself,” she says.

When she topped Class 8 her school principal handed her the Wren and Martin, a high school grammar and composition book, which then became her ‘go-to’. Some of the authors that she has enjoyed reading include Agatha Christie, Roald Dahl, J K Rowling and Arthur Conan Doyle. “My all-time favourite book is Jonathan Livingston Seagull by Richard Bach,” she adds.

Until Pooja cleared the mains, her parents remained sceptical. She says that there was almost no expectation from her to clear CSE. “When the mains result was announced, I saw a complete change in their attitude. In fact, my mother became my biggest supporter. She would wake up early with me, sleep only when I slept and ensured that I remained calm and well-nourished all through my interview preparation stage,” she says.

“More than the result, the change in my parents’ attitude is my prize. I worked so hard only for this acceptance,” she says with a wide smile.

(Edited by Yoshita Rao)

Author: Aaron Ryan